Creating Beauty

As a child, I was frightened by a humongous Kissy doll. At 3, it was as big as I was and when you pulled it's hands together it made a smacking or a supposed kissing sound. I was sure it would get up and get me......making smacking sounds as it neared my bed.

Now I make dolls.....some are supposed to be scary, but most just reflect how I look at beauty. To me we have a very narrow view of what beauty is and is not. I have cerebral palsy and don't think I'm whining about it I'm not. I'm lucky my case is very mild compared to some people's. But you can pick me out as different, I walk awkwardly, but my arm and leg work correctly.....for someone with a partially paralyzed arm and leg.

I look like someone with CP is supposed to and in my way I'm attractive. I try to reflect alternative beauty in the dolls I create and so in some ways I'm still dealing with fear, but now it's not my own.

Monday, March 10, 2014

Yeah, I'm being a militant gimp. Deal with it Snowflake

Okay, I don't tend to go off like this very often, but I just got a special question about my dolls. Now this has only happened once before in my life.  First off... 1. I am not mentally disabled. I have a normal IQ. In fact it is rather high, thank you very much. I am dyslexic, but so was Da Vinci. 

2. I have a physical problem with my body called Cerebral Palsy. Basically because of brain damage the electrical impulses that would activate the muscles in my right arm and leg don't all reach the muscles. So I have partial paralysis of my right limbs. 

3. THIS IS NOT a contagious condition. Do not ask me this ever again. If I do not know you, yes, you can ask me questions about my disability. But keep them sensible. Physical disabilities are not generally contagious. Illnesses that might lead to disabilities like polio are contagious. But the after effects are not. 

4. Oh, and I don't know all the disabled people in the world or who has what disability. And to tell you the truth, I don't really care what they have. I'm more interested in if they're nice or funny or like sci fi movies like I do.

Perhaps you oh so perfect physically normal special snowflakes should spend a day in a wheelchair and learn a little empathy. As a person with cerebral palsy, I get so tired of the grow a thicker skin comments. I say " realize you're one head injury, severe fever or a short stoppage of oxygen of being me." Mental disability, physical disability, learning disabilities and mental illness are things all of you snowflakes are either going to experience yourself or someone you might actually care about will experience in their lives. And you're going to feel so terrible cause you can't do what you used to. You do have my sympathy, but I also think karma is a bitch and I'll allow myself a little smile at your expense.

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