Creating Beauty

As a child, I was frightened by a humongous Kissy doll. At 3, it was as big as I was and when you pulled it's hands together it made a smacking or a supposed kissing sound. I was sure it would get up and get me......making smacking sounds as it neared my bed.

Now I make dolls.....some are supposed to be scary, but most just reflect how I look at beauty. To me we have a very narrow view of what beauty is and is not. I have cerebral palsy and don't think I'm whining about it I'm not. I'm lucky my case is very mild compared to some people's. But you can pick me out as different, I walk awkwardly, but my arm and leg work correctly.....for someone with a partially paralyzed arm and leg.

I look like someone with CP is supposed to and in my way I'm attractive. I try to reflect alternative beauty in the dolls I create and so in some ways I'm still dealing with fear, but now it's not my own.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Strange Fears....

Yes, I see that the cars are secured and I acknowledge that they won't fall off.

BUT!  My lizard brain is not as confident. I get behind one of these suckers in traffic and I am just waiting for that car on the end to suddenly decide to break away and throw off it's chains and squish me and my Ford Focus like a bug.

Now my phobia about things pretending to be human? That's easy...... Old tv Shows like Kolchak the Night Stalker with magicked mannequins just about did me in as a kid.

Kolchak-The Trevi Collection

There was definitely a lot of cheese served in these episodes and the effects were 70's tv cheap, but McGavin and the cast made it least for me.

Oh and Kolchak climbing alone into that junkyard car to kill a voodoo zombie..... Yow!

You can look that one up yourself....Shudder...

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